Loss and grasp

Sometimes it's so easy to feel lost. I have been truly feeling lost for a while now. Lately, it's feeling very out of control. I feel like Satan is trying to weasel into my heart and pour negativity and terrible thoughts into my head. It's making me angry, sad, frustrated, and hurt. I haven't felt this negative in a long time. It's taking a toll on me. The worst part is, that it comes and goes soooo fast. I get overwhelmed with a bad thought and then it just goes away. 5 minutes later, it comes back. That's enough to wear you out! I've written a few blogs but haven't posted any from feelings of discouragement. I'm now pushing onward.

 

Today, without going into very much, I wanted to remind myself- and everyone else.. DON'T BE SO AFRAID! The Lord is your armor. I read one of my favorite blogs this morning and it definitely gave me the encouragement I needed to hear. You never know where your blessings will come from. It's one of the reasons I write this blog and put my heart out for others to read. I want to help anyone who can be blessed by reading this and maybe knowing they're not the only ones going through certain things- good or bad. And of course, it always helps to know that I'm not alone, too.

'God may not be on time, but he's never late.'

 

 

We are all craving to feel him move in our lives. Right now, I'm working on being still enough to listen. I am going to make time for him in my daily routine from now on. How can I not? It's gone on long enough that I've made him second to other things. He should always take the #1 priority. It takes time to get into that groove, but it becomes a {beautiful} habit. I've been there. I miss it. I have now requested to not work on Sundays anymore so I can actually go back to church. I have truly missed that in my life. The Lord has a purpose for me, I just haven't realized what it is yet. Even if it were right in front of me, I wouldn't be able to see it right now, my heart isn't ready. I am so appreciative of Maxx for always being here for me- he's such a blessing, I'm glad I am able to be aware of that much.

I'm asking anyone who reads this to put on their suit of armor and join me in putting God first. Start with little steps if you're new to this. First, pray to Him and ask for his help in allowing you to see Him in all you do. He will show you. (The more I ask, the more signs I see every day- seriously.)

Then use daily thoughts to make decisions with him in mind. 

I'll read something and sometimes it sticks and I remember the next day at work, and it will help me. Sometimes, I just forget and keep feeling terrible. Try and remember something that encourages you to be better. Use it and train your mind to think of it when you need it. 

xox

Kara

Note: I wrote this a few weeks ago but never had a chance to edit then post it. I am glad to update that I'm feeling much better. I still have a way to go until I feel 'back to normal' but I am involving God much more in my life than before. I am SO GRATEFUL for the people he's been placing in my life. Some things you never see coming. Don't we all love a good surprise? He's good at keeping a secret till the right time.